The Day That
While each journey is unique, we all share a common theme - cancer changes our lives forever ~ Dawn KA
There are those moments when you may have something on your mind. You want to talk about it to someone, yet you don't want to bother anyone, especially your loved ones. However, you need to talk about it. You need to know if there is anyone who can relate to what you are going through. Conversations and Coffee gives you an opportunity to listen and share with others who are on the same journey with you. Whether it is from the patients perspective, the survivor, caregiver or doctor - its your chance to sip and chat.
I was first diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia (CLL) in the Spring of 2017. I was very tired and although I noticed that I wasn't feeling like myself, I assumed that it was perhaps my busy work schedule which included a lot of travel. My business travels will often come with time changes. I figured that I was in need of a good sleep to make up for the body getting out of it's normal routine.
My diagnosis left me in a state of denial. I did not believe it. I spent a lot of time looking online and even though some of the symptoms were similar to mine. I looked for the ones that did not match my symptoms, that offered me a bit of relief. It wasn't long after that I had to face the truth. I had cancer.
I felt the guilt of not listening and accepting sooner. I could have started treatment earlier. Now that I have begun treatment, the cancer has progressed.
I feel like I have let my family down, my wife asked me to start treatment earlier or get a second opinion but I hesitated. Now, I am consumed with worry.
Will this treatment work? How long do I have left?